Will I ever truly love again? Will I find the one who makes me whole? Why does it seem like no one is there? Like no one would desire me. Not just desire my body. Not just desire my character. Not just desire my soul. Not just desire whatever wealth I may have. But instead someone who desires every part of me. Who wants to know me, who wants to be with me, who wants to see the world with me, who wants to learn, grow, and love with me. Where are they? Because right now, the world seems so dark, and I need a light to refuel my passions, my desires. Someone who will support me and encourage me, and I will them. I feel so alone…. I’m happy with who I am, I’m happy with what I’ve done so far. But I don’t need that anymore. I need a source of confidence from the outside. Someone to confirm that what I think about myself is actually true. And not just a figment of my own imagination, bolstered to simply create a self allusion that leads to self delusion, and kills the drive and motivation that I foster inside. Where are you? Because I need you now.
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.